I can't believe it's already April!
I swear, it feels like 2006 just started! The time that I thought I had is quickly slipping away, so there is no time to waste!
I've also come to realize that I'm horrible at keeping this blog up to date. It has been over a month since my last entry. Sometimes I will sit down and try to write something, but when I read what I wrote it just doesn't feel like it's worth sharing, so I just delete it.
There was so much that happened over this last month. We spent three weeks up in the Bay Area to see family and friends, get wedding stuff done, and we had our Co-ed Wedding Shower! Everything went very well, but the entire time leading up to the shower I was not feeling well. I got stomach sick and dehydrated, but I kept thinking that I would just get over it eventually. Then, the day before the shower, I was at the store with Erwin and I felt like I was about to pass out. He said we had to go to the hospital because it had already been four days and I wasn't getting better. Plus, I couldn't be sick for our shower.
We went to the emergency room at the VA hospital and they took one look at me and admitted me right away. I guess I must have looked crappy! I was put into a bed right next to a white, middle-aged couple, so we could hear everything they talked about since we only had the curtain separating us. They were pretty interesting because they knew the words to that 36 Mafia song from "Hustle and Flow." The wife started singing "It's Hard Out Here for a Pimp" and "Whoop dat Trick" while Erwin and I looked at each other and giggled. People can be very surprising sometimes.
The blood work and CT scan showed that there wasn't anything seriously wrong with me, but I was dehydrated from throwing-up so I had to have two bags of intravenous fluids. Plus, I still had a throbbing headache and my face and my hands were going numb. The doctor said that I may have been having anxiety attacks which would explain the dizziness and numbness in my face and hands. Then, to make my headache go away, he let the nurse shoot some magical stuff into my IV and I was floating on air the rest of the night!
Why was I having anxiety attacks? I guess I was putting a lot of pressure on myself to make sure that everything was going smoothly for our shower and for our wedding. I worry way too much, and I just couldn't relax and let things flow. I think things would have been much worse if I didn't have such great support from Erwin. Somehow, he has the ability to make me feel safe. I know that I can't continue to worry myself to death over these kinds of things because our wedding is coming up at the end of this month and it's our time to celebrate, not be sick!
As each task gets completed it makes us realize just how close we are to the big day! We are so excited for our wedding, and even more excited to begin our life together as husband and wife. It may sound cheesy, but I truly believe that Erwin is my soul-mate, my best friend, and I have everything I could possibly want in this world when I'm with him.
I've also come to realize that I'm horrible at keeping this blog up to date. It has been over a month since my last entry. Sometimes I will sit down and try to write something, but when I read what I wrote it just doesn't feel like it's worth sharing, so I just delete it.
There was so much that happened over this last month. We spent three weeks up in the Bay Area to see family and friends, get wedding stuff done, and we had our Co-ed Wedding Shower! Everything went very well, but the entire time leading up to the shower I was not feeling well. I got stomach sick and dehydrated, but I kept thinking that I would just get over it eventually. Then, the day before the shower, I was at the store with Erwin and I felt like I was about to pass out. He said we had to go to the hospital because it had already been four days and I wasn't getting better. Plus, I couldn't be sick for our shower.
We went to the emergency room at the VA hospital and they took one look at me and admitted me right away. I guess I must have looked crappy! I was put into a bed right next to a white, middle-aged couple, so we could hear everything they talked about since we only had the curtain separating us. They were pretty interesting because they knew the words to that 36 Mafia song from "Hustle and Flow." The wife started singing "It's Hard Out Here for a Pimp" and "Whoop dat Trick" while Erwin and I looked at each other and giggled. People can be very surprising sometimes.
The blood work and CT scan showed that there wasn't anything seriously wrong with me, but I was dehydrated from throwing-up so I had to have two bags of intravenous fluids. Plus, I still had a throbbing headache and my face and my hands were going numb. The doctor said that I may have been having anxiety attacks which would explain the dizziness and numbness in my face and hands. Then, to make my headache go away, he let the nurse shoot some magical stuff into my IV and I was floating on air the rest of the night!
Why was I having anxiety attacks? I guess I was putting a lot of pressure on myself to make sure that everything was going smoothly for our shower and for our wedding. I worry way too much, and I just couldn't relax and let things flow. I think things would have been much worse if I didn't have such great support from Erwin. Somehow, he has the ability to make me feel safe. I know that I can't continue to worry myself to death over these kinds of things because our wedding is coming up at the end of this month and it's our time to celebrate, not be sick!
As each task gets completed it makes us realize just how close we are to the big day! We are so excited for our wedding, and even more excited to begin our life together as husband and wife. It may sound cheesy, but I truly believe that Erwin is my soul-mate, my best friend, and I have everything I could possibly want in this world when I'm with him.
posted by Jenn21 at 10:16 PM
1 Comments:
I read Erwin's blog, and I just wanted to congratulate you!
You looked totally stunning and gorgeous! Best wishes!
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